Decided to go and rework one of my older pieces. It doesn't really fit with any of my other works but it was the first real piece I made in Thesis.
Going to turn this post into a bit of a Journal entry here (better here than Facebook).
Recently my grandfather had a heart attack (he's 83). While scanning him the Doctors encountered a tumor in his pancreas. He was very weak. He could hardly speak or walk. Thankfully though, his love of Whisky saved him. The tumor didn't progress and was deemed to be benign. Doctors believed his alcoholism had a lot to do with it. Funny that alcohol has been proven to suppress tumor progression. So basically that drink of poison saved his life.
How does this relate to my work? Thinking of alcohol and addictions, I realized how many countless things there are that heal us but can poison us as well. Like alcohol which numbs our pains, gives us liquid courage for those paralytic times but can also wreak chaos with foot-in-the-mouth situations and inappropriate behavior. Immense pleasure gives an invitation to immense pain. One can't really go far without the other. This whole thing gave me a interesting perspective on my work. Instead of being in between growth and decay I thought maybe the girl is in between healing and being destroyed? Same thing really, subtle difference. The former is a natural occurrence, whilst the latter suggests an obvious experience of pain and pleasure. Its all in the interpretation maybe but these words make a difference.